back from Italy

Italy....what an amazing place. I love that country. I really just love traveling in general. I flew to Madrid then onto Rome. The airline Iberia is such a great airline. It reminds me of what flying used to be like in the US. There was certainly a general consensus of the people that I talked to from so many different countries on their perception of the American Culture. Every thing in America has to be bigger. Super-sized if you will. Even the AMERICANS themselves! We have gotten so wrapped up with wanting MORE that MORE is never enough. For the most part people are empty and trying to fulfill something to make them feel whole or successful. When really they are just feeding their ego and not really feeding themselves.

I am reading Eckert Tolle's new book, Awakening to your Life's Purpose. This book Oprah did a weekly podcast with Eckert Tolle to help AWAKEN our consciousness. What an amazing book. I never realized exactly how much I was feeding my ego. I knew that I felt empty inside a lot of times and that I had high aspirations for myself. Always wanting more and always being in the future and not enjoying the present. I have talked about before how hard it is for me to be present. I AM NOT ALONE! This is the way most people are. Their minds and egos are running them rather than just BEING.

When I started my mediation practice, that was the closest that I've ever been to being present. I felt so energized and connected to God, Source, The Universe, whatever it is that you want to call it. Since December, I've have lost that connection. The deep peace of consciousness of being present. Not that I have lost it completely. Once you've had a moment of enlightenment, that awareness stays with you...unless you get lost in your ego again.

My relationship with my boyfriend has been a wonderful learning ground for me. I have noticed quite a few times in conversations that I get very defensive, and I have to sit back and see where that comes from. Most of the time its my EGO reacting. It's been interesting to watch the transition of how my reactions are changing as I become more aware of the root of the reactions.

I really enjoy learning more about myself and growing into a better person. More real. I want to feel peaceful. Not anxious. Truly happy with everything that I have and the uncertainty of life. That uncertainty is very exciting. When you are in Present Time Consciousness the world is so much more than we could have fathomed. We are interconnected in such a way that can make your mind blow! I LOVE IT!!!

There is so much more than transpires everyday. I inspire you to slow down, observe what's around you. Look at life with an attitude of gratitude. Take a moment to sit and be still and just BE. Wondrous things await.